happy birthday!!!!

ha....p..p..y birthd...ay!!!!! actually yichen's birthday was yesterday...yet we went out today......for eating!!!!!....really excited ab that......

i think i am fine now....ok la...我基本上近期不虐你了****




really happy made my birthday on 7th, as we can go together!!!!!!!!

hapii birthdy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
today term 1 finished!!! i thought he was probably really happy al day long......he could be....

tomoro wil be terrific!!!! folllowin days should be boring........2 weeks???

plan to go to somewhere w/ u guys before my birthday.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

really moved.....

it was the end of the story.....i like the end with happiness.......really appreciate.....i m so looking forward to tomoro, watever wil happen seems to be not important.....now i prefer to be vacant along.......

你要的不是我*。。。

怎么能忘，时间多长，你快乐吗，想代替你回答。你知道吗，走了好远我才能去面对这份牵挂，沉默伤悲。你要的不是我，心碎的失去轮廓，曾经给你的感动，只是情绪的波动。能给的不是我，放任你沉溺自由，掩饰不了我的笨拙，就连说话都会颤抖，我被遗忘在你遗忘的角落。我被遗忘在你遗忘的角落。。。。。


somehow i really desire once u can sing this song for me, really desire as the time i left china......now i m thinking of the words again and u*.......

today i m happy!!!!but may not sleep (too much work!!!), that is the last week of term 1, then wat i can do on holiday???

i'd like every single day can be like today......ur smile made me happy.....she is always 善变*.....he is like a baby.......and finally he lost the wry face...!!!!

someone been really sensitive these days....including me.....everyday i expect sth of him, but he does always disappoint me someway......ok anyway, i do still expect one day u never upset me any more......

been really exhausted al day.....test came back, not satisfied with it at al....actually i do never care ab the mark, wat i mind is how i felt during the test condition....it was a disaster for me, this period of time seemed to be so remarkable as i was manipulated completely by the terrible anxiety.....

something else could be vacant....except he* got a wry face, but he is really happy.....

holiday is coming soon!!!but 3 tests, 1 project, and some new stuff will come first.....!!!!no idea!!


now...really looking forward to MR BEAN*.....!!!!!!

i wil never tel u wat i m thinking ab since i knew u had ur gf already......wat i rather like to do is wish u 2 can be happy every single day .....and i wll always be here....quietly.....

now..coming back........my nightmare

i was waking up with a start in the midnight......as my nightmare coming back again with a sudden scream-----*wrong*!!!!i knew sth i had ignored since i couldnt remember wat it was, i really begged it was just my illusion but it seemed to be unavoidable, as i coundnt never get rid of my coming nightmare this time......it will continue....as endless.....



today my brain is undergoing decay again with a high level ionisation......like lying in ruins.....

i went to a Chinese restaurant in somewhere in zone 3, anyway, the boss hadnt employ any efficient waiters as they were all like torpor with extremely slow move(the rhythm like --------.---------......slower then snail.....then forget wat i had ordered completely.....stop...)-----may be half deaf.....i didnt want to ask one more time which demonstraded the audience inhibition* again!!!

u r the last ferry for me as i recognised nothing went right......

today i got 2 stressful and crapped test on mm and psych, i hav done every single question unconsciously.........dizzy and nervous.......

i coudnt find my summary book before the mm test..wat the hell!!!!i begged that one who took my book would not throw it away.......so as the stupid calculator, the only one chance i used it ------got an exactly wrong value, later i even coudnt remember how many times i got a *false*over it......tricky tests today......

well i had wasted one period on setting goals as i knew i wouuld never obey it at all. though i put some stuff like pass vce by A+*(maybe never come true...), travel to Ireland and study forensic or physiological psych(without any consideration actually.....felt mixed-up now)......but wat i like is not too far away from him even he completely ignores me.......

well...today is a destructive start ......everything i did was all wrong!!!!------how come!!!

and wat is really disgusting*(actually confused)......is who i like is not that guy!!!!wat i thought before......deny it completely now and i 'd like to shoot myself for countless times as i lost the right one intentionally......