gigi?????? who r u ????? i thought u r one of my fris, but acually u r not da guy i considered...... r u in my college????

now, i eventually got such a dramatic ending~~~some unconscious words (actually now i dont know whether i sed to a wrong person or a right one...maybe i should say it long time ago ) ~~so ironic and definitely reflected what i used to say~~" i got an end as i even havnt had a real start...."

so now, da wise choice is leaving everything aside and just looking forward to psychology and pharmacy!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and clearly thinking ab where i should go~~~~ (i found that i lyk 2 change more fequently recently...becoz i always stay w/ 善变女！！)

2 be seriously, these 2 r required very high entry scores(i hav 2 say, either of da 2 is such a shit!!!!more than 96???? how can?????), and actually i dont really appreciate the new cource arrangement in mel uni~~~~so just looking 4 other possible choices~~i dont want 2 spend da whole year on a major which actually i hav no idea!!!!!!!!!i like going straightly 2 what i want~~ so wake up now!!!! and open da window, then 1~2~3~JUMP!!!(i m leaving in da ground~~~)

so i wont waver this time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! just kick him ouTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

da first week of term 2 could be a bit ..lon 4 me~~~i found everythin useless has completely gone now, thats made me feel released and calm.... i wil restart 2 be myself fr now on and go as my normal lyf...leave those* things and ppl out (w/ noticable consideration) ...its 2 tired 4 me 2 think of them, i m so bored......and really want 2 get rid of them~~~~

its rainin yesterday....i lyk rainin.......and i lyk 2 be wet...wherever it is, i never tak 伞*........

last nyt i sent som ms 2 my niuniu, really sweet and happi la~~~and we wil get a specific talk* af 5.1^_^ be really expected~~~hah!!! somthin bw NF*(da dead fish) and 不良？？？他敢调戏他！！！crazy la!!!niuniu, 帮我干掉你同桌啊～～～～


da same expectation w/ a*~just get better on da test (esp. on psych and chem, dont want 2 drop at al!!!!!! and never accept a disaster on da midyear report!!!!really concern ab it, so just concentrate on such things la~~~~~~)


da rest of my lyf r lyk---havin hun w/ my fris~~do wat i really want~~~totally ignore som of da things and ppl~~~~ wait 4 da end of year 2 c him and say everythin clearly then(dont want 2 get reject!!!!>_<....)

the first day of term 2.....somhow found many ppl changed durin da holi (esp on da hairstyle.....but som got inside change 2, hard 2 say wat it is.....i was 2 calm and peaceful wen i saw him....thats great!!!)

today's highlight could be....... i thought my psych teachers gone 2 da camp, and i told sonny that made him really happi 2 (really excited....and lookin forward 2 da class w/o teacher!!!!^_^!!!! ) but why shes still here??????...dumb



in addition, iris sed (in psych expression)----the more intensely u lyk a person, the less the lyklihood will be that u show him the affection directly, except the situation when u r totally anonymous.

owow.......dont know why i really want 2 paint!!! but a pity!!!~~~no equipment here>_<....

lookin @ da old paintings 4 a long while...and i recalled wat i thought wen initially finished da 1 of Cain* （anyone who can draw me a proper mouth 4 Cain, i would marry him~~~~~~~^_^), now there is impossible 2 draw him a mouth, becoz da dye cant melt into da original pic any more, its been so long tim.......

actually any painting requires da passion of da painter, but i seemed 2 be really low-spirited on paintin 4 1 years......this tim da inspiration!!!!!!!!!!comin bak....yet now i cant paint....

somhow da paintings can be considered as my life in china......really miss da mates in my class (esp. my nuinui*, my neighbour tai, yanyan, mengmeng, moon.......and as well as him)* every tim wen i think of their expression and any slight action, i can feel very calm and inspired........lyk they r still around me and never leavin..........

today, iv got a talk w/ my mum ab da uni major again ....gosh..every tim lyk this--no definite decision 4 myself and becom more confused of reality, maybe i m stil not mature, so iv always been so impetuous，stil be not sure wat actually i want. initially, iv so insisted 2 study psych and considered everythin would be assured, but practically nobody supported my choice and my mum sed "u probably change ur mind as da tim goes by, i m pretty sure... u would find sth more, more than ur thought and ur original intention, so its 2 early 2 determine ur future....." thats da first tim i hav 2 think ab why studyin abroad seriously......

it seems that everyone has their own goals to achieve, they study wat they wil practice in their major (BM+AC 4 COMMERCE; BIO+CHEM 4 DOCTOR; ARTS+DESIGN 4 DESIGN....) and mostly can satisfy their families, wat ab me?? PHYS+PSYCH+CHEM=????? actually phys is 4 free tim, chem should be important, but now be da lowest of da 3, psych is absolutely a disaster....dumb...

maybe my mum is right and wise, maybe i am 2 subjective and persistent on it. ...

i m heraldin my 18th birthday!!!!!

got the first benediction at oo:oo fr a* and as wel as my other friends'(in mel and in china)!!!!!!!!!!!!! really happi!!!!!!!!i think its great birthday in my life....taihao sed i 'd better find a japanese guy*, otherwise he wil always worry ab it*..... (bu*~~~~); my nuinui thought its a good start 4 him and me , hope so la, but i hav 2 make sure i didnt consider him as NF* (maybe its a good end actually);they all really concern aB my taste!!(esp. 4 NF*???? i m tasteful and fussy on it!!).....so wat do u think???so miss u guys!!!



actually i want 2 hear ur voice now...i know its impossible...but can u just say sth.. watever it is....this time u put me down again, just as before u did.....


11:20*-----自從那一次的月半彎之后， 他似乎成為了一道舊傷口，許久沒有聽到了，因為總是刻意地囬避着，偏偏在今晚無意中聽到了，我覺得這似乎代替了你的聲音。。。。即使並非你的囬應。。。。so can i say this time 。。i hear ur voice*.........

holi is gettin borin now......i m really afraid of any holi al alon(become lazy~)......one week left.....dumb..zz~~~

so fa i stil cant use myspace*---why!!!...always sth wrong, and i always fogort sth 2... so i got like"simple things r da best." i luv da simple one i got..

a* said the oldest one* is so impressive and unforgettable....i said yea*....i did 2.....i cant deny he is stil in, never leavin, and i cant forget at al....i didnt tel u anythin, but i never regretted of my decision...

and i stil got no idae to tell 搁浅* from 轨迹*......

waitin 4 my 18th birthday, so long....12:01

went 2 the great ocean road....it could be a tour of sleepin, becoz most of the time we were on bus.....but really beautiful marine area and pasture！！！！hapi..hapi..lala!!!

somhow i couldnt sleep at al....z~z~z~~~~

dear!!!!!!!!!!!..........really enjoy this birthday!!!we can be together....and i hope we wil be together forever!!!!!!

"ne......小a*....somhow i found i was a 路痴**too...ahha!!"i cant find the bus station today.....no idea!!!........

its time 2 go!!!! i cant wait 4 tomorrow!!!..................................

its gone.......wat or who i did care ab wil not exist any more.....but i m really happi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

somtims i feel like.....there must be sth i can never reach.....whenever it is

today yi* told me..... she got extreme compassion for sb, she longed to do sth for her, but somhow she cant do al of them...i think so......now in dilemmas...............................


been happy for 2 days....actually been still vacant....done nothin......but been always busy and sleepy.......

u might trick me......i thought so....well i'd like to giv up.........

today i got my first birthday present (9 days earlier.......) from a*(果然有够变态！！！嘿嘿）
really like it!!!!!!!!!!!!its the one we saw yesterday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!so beautiful!!!!!!!!!!!

thank u!!!!my dear!!!!!

go to great ocean road on 5th!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

always sth wrong w/ my msn....last night and this morning.........crazy la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!